Resignation

I'm handing in my letter of resignation tonight at an Elder's meeting. It's a death and a rebirth. The letter goes something like this: "These have been the best five years of my life, and probably the best five years I'll ever have, but I am so glad they're freaking over".

I have no idea what's going to happen next. I have a feeling that some of these teens will be in my life forever - but is that healthy? I'm not sure. I suppose not having to run the program will be a break in and of itself.

Now, I hope I honor the teens with my life - I hope they see me as being Christ-like. I don't want them to see a quitter, but someone who is growing, developing, transcending. I wish they could see my heart, that I don't want to hurt anyone or abandon anyone - I really think this is best.

Is it possible that at 22 years old I understand the empty nest syndrome? Am I prepared to have teenagers now that I have to painfully let them go for their own good?

I have a feeling the next 6 months are going to be full of birthing pangs.